Well...

Well, it's my birthday in exactly two weeks. It's so hard for me to believe that I'm turning only 20. It seems (even though it didn't always seem that way) that I grew up sooo much this past year. At 19, I started the year out completely lost, without any knowledge of who I really was.I sank further and further down into despair until I finally snapped. My suicidal attempt was obviously not successful, but it sure opened my eyes. I realized after that I was worth being alive, and my life was worth living. I knew halfway through the year at Dal that my time there was done. It was time to leave Halifax, because deep inside myself, I knew I could never find myself there. So I left for good at the end of May.I spend the summer on the farm back in Grand Falls. I spent a wonderful summer, although always full of ups and downs, with my parents. Back in Spring, I knew I would want to pursue a career in Pharmacy Technician. I found out Oulton College in Moncton offered the program and I applied and got accepted.I spent my summer relaxing and working for my father. I wanted this year to go as smoothly as possible, and I was determined to do well. Towards the end of August, I went to Halifax to get all my stuff, and moved to Moncton. And here I am. My year started off great, I'm doing great in school, I live in a kick-ass place, and my roommate and I get along great.Everything is still great, even though I ended up pregnant. It'll be about two months on my birthday. But as some people would be discouraged by it, I'm actually happy. I have a reason to take good care of myself, to love myself, heck a reason to live. I've probably mentioned this before, but this is my "looking-back-on-the-past-year" entry.I feel like such a different person then the one I was a year ago. I feel like I've matured, who knows if I have, but I just feel like that. Well, I guess this is it for now. I'm sick today with morning sickness, and I need to get some rest so I'll be ok for tomorrow. Until the next update, take care y'all